writing in the void

are you there?  how do i know you're there?  i really don't know if you know i'm there on facebook.  or if i've tweeted.  what is a need to know moment?  you don't need to know when the dog looks up with harp seal eyes or when the wind shivers the cedars.  what do i need to know?

everything.  really.  i want to know everything but i accept that there are limits to accessing all knowledge.  i just want to know you are there.

thinking about you and smiling.

Lost in the rain/snow sunbreak ...

and found.  Moments of self shining like the sun and hours of remembering "silence is golden."  Once, long ago, I thought I would be a nurse.  One year working in the emergency room, I fell into literature with great passion. 

Being of service lingers as an after thought.  That's when I began to practice reflexology.  Now, as caretaker, I find that silence is the best medicine.  For surely the role of the patient is one of feeling powerless and at the mercy of the moment, the surgery or the illness.  A grasping any possibility of gaining control.  it is natural.

It is not natural for me to be silence.  So, I drop back into my zen and remember that I am so much more than my opinions.


I hold Ganesh, talk to Mary Magdalene, chant the 108 syllable Buddhist words...all take me into that ego-less place of peace.
That's where I find myself...talking to the Spirit of Cedar, drooping arms down to embrace me, deva of sword fern,  Green Man and Green Woman singing Brigit into my DNA.  And the day unfolds...

Hide the Tap Shoes

Michael and I drove to Seattle on Monday for his pre-op appointments.  We stayed at the Sorrento Hotel, Seattle's oldest.  It is reminiscent of the Brown Palace in Denver, a lovely old hotel, updated and well kept with the charm of history.  We ate dinner at Blueacre Seafood~fabulous food in a sleek modern setting with the blue of butterfly wings as the theme.  The only way to spend a pre-surgery day, Michael said.

We arrived at Swedish Orthopedic Institute at 5:15 AM on Tuesday.  He went into surgery at 5:40.  The surgery for resurfacing his left hip was straight forward and he came out of recovery before 10:00 AM.  By late afternoon, he put full weight on his left leg and and took eight steps.

Physical therapy and occupation therapy on Wednesday and Thursday morning.  We left the hospital before 1:00 PM and drove home.  Michael navigates well on crutches and uses a walker for some things.  The new focus for surgery is to use multi-modal medications prior and post surgery, plus doing a spinal instead of general anesthetic.  He has not had any pain with this approach.

We both send gratitude to all who sent prayers, healing thoughts and light in his direction.  He will be home for two weeks and then go back to Seattle to see the doc.  He intends to go back to work that week.

Blessings to you all.

Ptah

Rain eats the stars and Ptah steps forward bringing moments of Egypt from the past into the present and future.  A new moon.  The 9th Mayan Wave.  Hang onto your raft and enjoy the scenery.

In the Garden of the Moon

Each night I look above the towering cedars and firs to smile at Grandmother Moon on her nightly rounds.  Tarot of a Moon Garden is a delightful deck and book filled with magical images of unicorns, butterflies, dolphins, dragons and exotic birds.  There a endless ways to choose a deck.  However, most often I feel the deck chooses me.  First it is the artwork.  Second is the written word.

Seventy eight cards of wisdom dance into our lives through many formats.  This is a wonderful deck to expand your perceptions of life.

Winter Bites

The sun sank below Orcas Island and Bellingham slid into darkness just as I slid on ice.  A very steep hill, narrow road, rock wall on one side, drop off on the other.   Of course I could pass the vehicle spun out.  Steady on.  An illusion.  The car would go no further.  The tires squealed against ice. 

Many cars drove up and ignored my emergency lights blinking and backed down.  I was in the middle of the road and cars coming in the opposite direction drove forward like I had a choice of position.

I called SV Security who called the county sheriff and 911.  I called AAA.  Two hours plus wait time for any assistance.  Security officer closed the hill by setting out orange cones and went for a battery pack.  My battery was dead...with window open.  I felt very vulnerable sitting in the dark without lights and waiting.

I know I have many Unseen Helpers and I asked who could help me.  Nefertiti came, her elegant long neck extended, her Egyptian eyes wise with the ages.  Sit up straight, breathe, elongate your neck.  I closed my eyes and followed directions.  With the help of Security I got home safe and sound and canceled all the other out of area emergency responders. 


It was 21 degrees when I got home.  Too cold to sit in a car for a few hours.  Gratitude to the real time helper Ryan and to Nefertiti.  Orion continued to skate across the chilled sky and laugh.

Flakes Fall Down

Lambs born in the snow are stronger, the Crone said.  
The shepherdess knows it is true.   
If they survive.